When you’re doing something by yourself its hard to know where you stand and how successful or not your being. For success comes in many ways and if your measures are ones that aren’t important to you then success might be illusive. I’ve been listening to several stories of successful artist who were turned down and rejected or minimized and the key is to keep going. Now while that doesn’t guarantee success, it’s certainly doesn’t waste any time if down the road you are accepted in some way. So onward I go.
I’m trying to stay positive throughout each day as best I can. Some things I still let affect me in negative ways, but overall I’m doing better and I’m not letting myself get stuck in long cycles of despair and negativity. Though its going to be tough knowing I didn’t hit the Mega Millions and I have to go to the job that pays the bills again. Too bad, I had planned on retiring from that on Sunday. Guess I’ll have to put in the remaining years after all.
Well my part-time lawn service and I parted ways yesterday. The conversation with them ended with “Go Green you can Go F yourselves.” Usually I don’t do that type of stuff but these guys abused our relationship something fierce. So I’m turning into the full-time yard man again.
I’ve always been that except for a summer when I was down with cancer the first time and then again about three years ago when a new cancer came around. This time we only hired them for every other week and I was doing the other week in between. So now its back to every weekend yard maintenance. Such is life. It’s good exercise anyway. And my 20-year-old John Deere still starts every time. It’s not the beast it once was, but it still gets the job done. I just use a lower gear than I used to as not to strain it.
Random Thoughts of the Day
Feeling very tired today. Someone point me towards a horizontal surface.
I’m looking at life differently each day now.
The week of vacation can’t be over already.