Almost fell under the pressure to imagine. And act on that pressure to go buy a Mega Millions ticket to live a few seconds of the wonder of what it would be like to win that much money. But I have resisted every drawing as it has grown to record levels.
If I had started to play that game last week I would have been a few dollars poorer between now and then. You see I’m trying to break the habit of succumbing to that thought of having no more financial worries. It’s an attractive drug that greed is. It’s not that I played more than $10 a year. Just when a jackpot grew to a big amount and then I’d still pretty much get one ticket at a time.
Hardly a gambling issue. But now I see it as a discipline issue. I don’t want that false hope. How many people (millions) are hanging on that drawing tonight? How many will be depressed when they curse at their tickets? How many will think they could have picked up a flower for their better half or daughter or treated themselves to a snowball?
More than a few of us spend a lot more than a few dollars. That leads to anger and disgust and issues at home.
All I need to feel like a winner is for the Daughter and Son to tell me my grandchildren are healthy and rested well tonight.
I think I’d get more joy if I gave those few dollars to a charity or directly to someone in need. So that is what I will do tomorrow morning. Make a donation.
Random Thoughts of the Day
- The good thing about yardwork is you can see accomplishment at the end of the day.
- I’m kind of a night owl. I wonder if people would think it strange if I was washing my car before sunrise. I’d really like to go cruising for a bit in the morning.
- Sanding is therapeutic.
- My infrastructure sure does creak like an old bridge at times.
- The day was made for me when I heard “I love you, Papa.”