I feel mentally paralyzed and at the same time, my mind is racing at full speed. The trouble is I’m going nowhere because I don’t have the information to plan what I need to do. Should I worry or be concerned? Should I go on like nothing is changing at the job?
Lots of companies are going through layoffs so I’m not the only one with concerns this holiday season. In some ways, I’m very relaxed. I got skills that are in demand. But at the same time, I’m in my mid-60s and that isn’t an attractive age for a lot of potential employers.
And to be honest at this age I’m not sure I want to start new at another company after being anchored at this job for the last 25 years. I hope I don’t have to but it’s just a numbers game now and a good number of people are up.
Right now I’m just pissed off that they ruined my weekend and potentially my holidays. I guess saying this while still employed is dangerous but people have feelings and dropping a bomb like that on us 11 days before Xmas with no details except for the fact that it could be up to a few hundred people to me is highly inconsiderate. And if the excuse is we wanted you to have the info asap well then tell me who hires between 12/20 and 1/1, please.
Kind of ironic I was reading an article in my own publication on layoffs and what to do, just over a week ago. Well, whatever will be will be. But I’ll be obsessing about this till I have details about my future regardless of how much my better half wants me to ignore it. It’s real life and it’s my life and career and I’ll deal with it the way I like when it’s threatened.
All I know is that I have to prepare for a range of emotions. At the best, I might have to be saying goodbye to some other coworkers who landed on the wrong side of the axe. At worst I’ll have a lot of unplanned work searching and challenges to meet forcing me to do a lot of things I hoped to avoid if I fall on that side.
Random Thoughts of the Day
- Can’t wait for my 3-year-old granddaughter to run through my front door tomorrow morning. She always relaxes my mind.
- I think I’ll pick up the camera and tripod tomorrow night and grab some shots of holiday decorations.
- My friends will cheer me up tonight.
- My apologies for ranting about the same thing for 2 days in a row.
- Music is saving me again, a smile is back on my face. The old classics always do it for me.