Beach chairs, all they need is my butt planted in them. I’ve stopped beating myself up finally about feeling guilty for taking breaks. While those around me probably still consider me hyper and unable to rest properly, I’m making progress. I can tell this because I feel more relaxed. Things aren’t getting to me like they used to.
To me it’s not only the rest but the point of being comfortable with myself. The more I work on my own interest the happier I am. But I slip into this mode of worrying that I’m putting out less than my best effort. Of course its less than my best effort, its part-time at best between a packed life and another full-time job.
So its time I have a staff meeting with myself. I need to get more disciplined. I need to plan better. I need to schedule my time more effectively and cut out activities that waste life. When I started this I used to do a monthly set of goals and priorities, not that I was that good at meeting them. I need to get back to that. And instead of the random approach to my photography and writing, I think I’ll institute a process when we used to schedule a group of photojournalist and writers (stories with images and words). I’m going to try to assign myself an assignment or two each day in an effort to apply some pre-thought to what I’m shooting instead of the random style I’ve had so far. So I’ve developed my photo schedule.
It’s also time to invest some money also. No I don’t have many resources in that regard but I got to get a few critical items. A new printer because I like to look at pictures on more than a screen. I also should invest in some lighting equipment.
I hope to devote two weekends a month to working on my carving/engraving. I was doing good at the start but in the last year I’ve really dropped off on that work.
That vacation a few weeks ago left me recharged and now I just need to think and organize to accomplish. Well its a plan like any other, fraught with holes and issues but that is what makes it fun, the challenges.