Good day, all. The weekend is starting and I’m looking forward to a fine one. I just wish I was starting it, feeling a little better. Such is life, lots harder battles being fought by those who are really sick. Let’s keep them in our thoughts and do as much as we can for them.
Run Down – I don’t think I’m sick. I believe I’ve just gotten run down. Lack of sleep, a body feeling more than its age, a fogged mental sharpness. I just haven’t had the energy I need this month. Which leads to a less than optimal mental approach.
I don’t think it’s trying to do too much. I’m not working a bunch of overtime. I’ve even missed a day or two of blogging to try to refresh the body with rest but this is difficult with the neighbors I have. If it isn’t the roosters or geese waking me up it’s them pounding on something outside or a generator and nail gun firing away.
I’m just in a slight down cycle with my energy. But I think I’ll take some action on some time off, so I’ve scheduled 2 days away from the job that pays the bills over the next two weeks. Hopefully, that will turn the situation for the better.
At least I recognize it earlier now and don’t spiral downward as I used to by never cutting back on anything and thinking it would change. The older I get the more moron solutions I remove from my brain, hence the term live and learn.
Grieving – With the passing over the last half-year of my mother and father-in-law I’ve seen a good bit of grieving. Had a share of it myself because I did love them dearly. But it also reminded me of missing my own parents. Sometimes catching a glance at their photos pauses me. I don’t want to let memories go but as time goes on it gets harder to remember all the specifics. But I will never stop feeling the love.
I was introduced to grieving fairly early with my Dad passing when I was young. I still grieve his loss today and that is a big hole I have in my life because I didn’t get a chance to know my own father. Sometimes I sit wondering what would be different. What could he have given me that I really could use? Maybe a bit of his courage. He was in WW2 and Korea. He traveled as part of the Navy to both Poles after the wars. Maybe he could have given me the confidence to aspire to more than I am now. Not that I’m unhappy with myself, just maybe if I had been more motivated I might have accomplished more.
I don’t spend an unusual amount of time wondering those things but when I pause, I sometimes wonder. I think about how my Mom would be so happy with her great-granddaughter and the love she could have shared with her. I think about her calls on my birthday and that still brings a tear to my eye at times. I could go on and on about the things I miss about them. I remember feeling better when I visited their gravesite at Arlington, but the recent deaths have wiped that away, I just miss them very badly again.
But I remain strong because it’s my better half that needs my support now, and rightfully so. Everything about their passing was made very difficult if not impossible by the current conditions. The closeness also compounded it. So I’ve got to figure out how to make this year a better one for her. One that will buffer the pain with some happy time. My first challenge is this month with her birthday. I have a few good ideas already. So let me write them down to act on before I forget.
Random Thoughts of the Day
- A healthy day is much more than a good day.
- Find things you have in common with people and build from there.
- I have two horses in the race today. Go Packers and Ravens.
- I’m working on posture before I can’t. Then again a pretzel has posture.
- A granddaughter sleeping on her grandmother is a wonderful sight.
- A positive post is coming soon.
Random Political Thoughts of the Day
- Our Mom’s taught us if you can’t say something nice about someone then don’t say anything at all. I just wanted to explain that is why you will never hear me utter Andy Harris’s name. But then again some people are good examples of exceptions.
- So congressmen fear for their lives because of their votes, what have we become?
- So some members of Congress want to carry a gun to work but not wear a mask.