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Wondering

I wonder if I’m the only one fooled by sounds coming from the TV that sound like the alerts I have set to calls or text or news or email for my own devices.

I wonder how long I’ll live.

I wonder if its going to snow.

I wonder why I’ve been so lucky to choose and be chosen by my better half.

I used to wonder about my children’s future till I realized long ago they exceeded me and my expectations of them by many miles.

I need to wonder more often about helping others and then do something about it, instead of worrying about the small shit.

I wonder what its like to not wonder.

I wonder a lot now about what retirement could be like. But as always, be careful what you wonder for.

I used to wonder what our President was thinking but that gave me a bad headache, an attitude and seemed to press every asshole button I have.

I wonder if others are as fortunate as I to have such great lifelong friends.

I wonder why small and young children get very sick.

I wonder how some live so long and others so short.

I wonder what my pets think.

I wonder all the time what my children are doing.

I wonder what religion really means.

I used to wonder when I was younger, why I wasn’t paid more, but now I wonder if others will really discover what work is really about like I did.

I wonder what it would be like to be a good musician and be performing live on stage.

I wonder if the roof on Merriweather Post Pavillion will be ready for the graduation and concert seasons.

I used to wonder if the people who I worked with many years enjoyed the experience as much as I did. I think time has answered that one for me in a lot of cases.

I wonder what the future of the truth is.

I wonder if we will be wiser in our choices in elected officials that have so much more control over our lives than we think.

I wonder how many more years my eyes and coordination will last in target shooting so I can continue to at least have one thing better than my Son. I guess I should get used the idea that it one day will pass also. At least he will be a better shot for it.

I wonder if I will stay on Facebook? Because I wonder why I waste the time I do, after I’ve been on it. But then the wonder passes as I smile at the photo of an old friend or family member I just saw.

I wonder if I should be using a ? instead of a . to end these.?.?  At least I’ve removed all wonder if I was any good at English in school.

I wonder if you wonder when will he stop wondering and move onto the next topic. I wonder if I got that context correctly?

Wondering at Sunset
Photo by Mike Hartley


Random Thoughts of the Day

I wonder why I used up all my Random Thoughts on “wondering” today before I wrote my Random Thoughts.

Women, this issue is yours and yours alone. PLEASE STOP PUTTING ON MAKE-UP and trying to DRIVE at the SAME TIME. Thank you. You may now start listing the thousands of faults men have in your comments section.

Some days post and thoughts and ideas just flow. Other days not so much. I think pressure has a lot to do with it for me at least.

Have a healthy day all, I’ve got about a dozen hours of work ahead so the kid has to run.


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Waiting for snow

When you find someone who has stumbled across the meaning of life and shared it, its worth reading over and over again. And adopting that as part of your own life will enrich you more than you can believe. I read that note from the 27-year-old girl who was dying and it was right on point. It’s unfortunate that it takes something like that to sort out what is important and real in life.

Snow covered roof of barn on Bethany Lane.
Photo by Mike Hartley

I’m waiting for results. I just started to medicate today and hoping that can kick what is wrong with me to the road. Tomorrow I’m going to work from home and enjoy watching it snow. From the inside of course, I can’t be out in this cold with my hacking. But I’m awaiting the beauty a snow provides. And its quiet that gives the outdoors.


Random Thoughts of the Day

Would you make a deal with someone you don’t trust?

Maybe government workers should work this Monday, the likelihood they will be off next Monday seems pretty good.

We now live in the land of confusion. But I’m trying to sort it out and be the best person I can. That is till I have the unfortunate experience into running into someone who is interested in being the worst person they can. Good thing I’m a Gemini so I can instantly change into my alter ego. Evil lurks under many stones.

Does Stephen Miller look like Joseph Goebbels? And they say history never repeats itself. Oh that right they do say history repeats itself if you don’t learn from it.

Personally I don’t mind Trump playing golf so much, keeps him from making more a cluster F than it already is.

Can you imagine what it felt like to get that announcement that you had a few minutes to live the other day in Hawaii? If not please try because that is what we face each day. Ignoring that reality isn’t healthy. Now who do you want to have access to the football?


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A Day of Rest – for some

A Day of Rest – for some – Sundays have changed a lot since my youth. The expectations, events, chores and yes even work all invade our Sundays now and the pace is just like any other day of the week. Yeah we used to have to cut the yard on Sunday if it rained on Saturday. Yes there is still services on Sunday morning even though I rarely go now. (something I should think about). But stores are open just like any other day of the week for almost every business. Sporting and other events galore.

What happened to that day of rest from my youth? What happened to everything closed on Sundays except essential services and a very FEW 7 days a week enterprises? What happened to that one day a week all your neighbors were home and outside if it was nice weather? What happened to that Sunday dinner with the family that wasn’t rushed, that was specially prepared, that everyone came to? What happened to the family afternoon or evening walk?

Take a break.
Photo by Mike Hartley

Well life evolved and change happened and here we are. Not sure entirely better off, but certainly changed. My wife has kept up the Sunday dinner tradition. But with schedules the way they are now I’m surprised if that tradition isn’t gone or abandoned by lots of families. Even during my career at times I’ve been working Sundays. My Mom is probably yelling at me from the highest point she can find about the importance of a day of rest and family.

How many of us even take a few hours now, on a weekend to rest. Peoples downtime or days off don’t even fall on weekends for a lot of us. Our structure and ability to connect and relax is changed. And as they say there is no going back. The shift has been completed. Sundays are no longer the day of rest because there is no day of rest. Just less chores or things to check on or errands to run or places to be if you’re lucky, even the days off are packed. Well maybe its a day of rest if your on vacation. But even that is questionable with our habits now days.

So a happy Sunday morning to you all and may as many of you as possible, slip back a few or several decades, relax, go see your parents, have a meal together, talk after and before dinner, step outside and spend a few minutes catching up with your neighbor. (those in the Northeast will be forgiven if they skip that last step of the day because of the temps).  But just rest, recharge your body and spirit to take on the coming week.

Wish I could take my own advice, but the job that pays the bills is on this Sunday for the kid. But the rest of you, kick back, put your feet in the sand and give thanks.

Sand artist
Photo by Mike Hartley


Medical –

As I’ve watched a few friends fight off infections, I wonder if we are so concerned with temporary and immediate relief that we don’t do ourselves more harm with the use of antibiotics too much in our youth. A segment on Channel 13 news this morning shook me a bit over people losing limbs because of infections and made me wonder if this isn’t self-inflicted?

I’m certainly no doctor, even though that is one of my many nicknames. What was inspiring about those people who had faced the loss of multiple limbs was their drive and spirit. And a PT nurse saying their attitudes had 300% to do with their recovery and progress. The human spirit in some people and most, is overwhelming at times. Hats off to these individuals who fight harder that Ali/Frazer each minute of each day.


Random Thoughts of the Day

I like starting Sunday by trying to catch some of CBS Sunday Morning show. But as stated above I’m having trouble making the time to watch a whole episode of it.

Isn’t it wonderful if your able to see people getting more and more beautiful as they age. This requires a special vision that not all have.

I’m in a great mode this morning despite having someone stabbing me in the back last night. Just a bit of trouble sleeping with some back pain that opened my eyes a few times.

I could kiss the person who invented the space heater.

Share your memories, no sense being selfish and taking them all with you to the grave. Who knows whose heart will be warmed or what you may inspire by something tragic.

How many more days till I can step outside in shorts and a tee-shirt?


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Tired

Morning Greetings all – I went to bed tired and physically spent. Pushed my sick behind too much yesterday. I didn’t think I had done too much till I got home at 6pm and couldn’t stop coughing, couldn’t breathe and had to lay down for a while. Next thing I know its 4:30am this morning. My chest was much better, I could breathe and had some energy as I woke. Now some energy for me is maybe getting to 30% because I have had nothing now for several days. But each day has had some kind of improvement and I think I’m getting better. So I’m a ray of sunshine this morning.

Sunset on bay in Ocean City
Photo by Mike Hartley

I would have loved to make a post yesterday but I didn’t anticipate having to crash so early. And in an effort to make up for missed time and opportunity I might just throw a few together today.


Changes

Being I’m such a disorganized and random individual I thought I’d at least try to present my thoughts and images in a different layout that might be easier for you to follow along and maybe lead to better thoughts about what I’d like to say and the images I might use to illustrate them. Well, at least I’m going to give it a go. Don’t expect anything special for a while. It will be gradual.


Political Crap

Might as well end this now, one way or the other. Do we start to seek the truth and come to a consensus and direction and leadership by both sides working for the good and future, or do we just retreat to our MSNBC/FOX  camps, take up arms and supplies and just get to deciding this argument? It won’t take much to trigger the later, being we’ve migrated to both camps already.

Just as troubling or maybe more so than what the President said, is the two versions. He says he didn’t say that and a Senator who was in the room said he said it repeatedly. That one Senator was a Democrat. As I have read so far this morning, only one Republican Tim Scott, stepped forward and say yes the news reports were basically accurate. Lets just get to the truth with this man can’t we? If he can’t take ownership of what he says, then what the hell is he doing running our country. We don’t need a liar running the country from either party. We need someone we can trust. Integrity is everything.

Well, enough politics for the day, I’ve got to shop for food and ammo. Just kidding, actually shopping for a special birthday celebration. Would be nice if life was like it was before where we weren’t consumed with hostility and concern, to be able to go through a week and not be worn out by the news and conflict. But that was wrong also on my part to be comfortably numb to some serious and underlying problems this country hasn’t come to terms with yet.

Don’t Stress, its only a matter of time. 
Photo by Mike Hartley

Maybe those days are finally upon us.


Random Thoughts of the Day

Life is short. Thats it.

I’m a star when it comes to thinking about eating better. I’m something far less brighter when it come to doing it.

I used to think I had a lot of faults, now I feel much better about myself due to our President.

Irony = Trump signing a MLK proclamation less than 24 hours after his comments on Haiti and African Countries.

Karma = the MLK statue falling on the man wants to be another kind of King, on Monday.

My WP spell check says shithole is not a word. – maybe it will be added this year. Google has it. “an extremely dirty, shabby, or otherwise unpleasant place.”

Maybe today will be better. I’m going to try to make the best of the S-hole I find myself in.


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Note to self – listen up

Communication is the key. To any relationship and any chance of success. Wise choice of words, clarity of thought and consistency of expressing them with solid reasoning. Easy to say, hard to do. And of course communication not only requires you sharing your thoughts, but in listening and respecting and thinking about the thoughts of others.

And that is one of many things we are missing in the world today. Talking at each other is different from talking to each other. I’ve made and will continue to make many mistakes in communication. And the list of people who could recount those is long and distinguished. But I’m trying to always improve. I’m too impulsive and reactive without proper forethought at times. But sometimes that leads to the real, inspired, passionate and needed messages. The trouble is that far from fits every situation.

Pit crew – surgery in progress.
Photo by Mike Hartley

Early on in my career, I had a good number of angels (co-workers and managers) that took me under their wings and gave me some important lessons. They could take an anger laced manifesto and say, “he’s got some good points or ideas between all this rage.” They had incredible and maybe undeserved confidence in me despite the less than professional way I would communicate at times. They would mentor me and they still do today. Them along with my better half and a few best friends keep me in line.

I have to remind myself to always listen more and talk less. Those close to me might say (it’s still not working Mike). All I know is that the older I get, the more communications become important to me. Words spoken by those wiser than I. Words that ring with truth and respect and honor. Words of insight. Words of love and inspiration or creativity and hope.

And this reminds me its time to write my children again. I’m still coughing too much to talk to them on the phone.


Random Thoughts of the Day

Normal is what we all face every day. How we interpret it along the way swings it one way or the other.

As the Terminator said, its in our nature to destroy ourselves. I just didn’t think I’d see it in my lifetime.

I was going to drop out of Facebook till I was told about the unfollow button.


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Risk

I’ve just taken some of the biggest professional risk in my professional careers. Only time will tell how it works out or doesn’t. I just had to get some things off my chest in the hopes of improving my situation. I’m not looking for rewards, just respect and courtesy. Then again it might backfire, who knows how people will take things.

Well, I’m comfortable because I felt like I’ve been honest and truthful.

Here’s looking at you babe.
Photo by Mike Hartley

I hope you all have had a wonderful day. Because every day drawing breath is a good one.


Random Thoughts of the Day

Will I beat that deadline again?

Will I make it to retirement?

Will I take some new pictures this weekend?

Will I be able to breathe soon?

Will anyone read this?

Will there be love and kindness in our time, instead of greed and excess?


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Livid

Got upset about something today. Took me an hour or more to realize it just isn’t worth it. No sense ruining my health about things I can’t change and I’ve tried to do it in constructive ways but it’s just not worth the stress and trying to drag people along. Such is life. I can still work hard, take pride in the job I do but all I look forward to is quitting time. Kind of a shame after almost 20 years but lots of people told me it would beat me down. I didn’t want to believe it but it has. Maybe its time to chart a new course. But then again, it’s a little late in life for a course correction.

I don’t see any power steering here.
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OK, so moving onto more constructive things in life. I’m thinking about 2 sick friends. Two of my best friends. Wishing them both a speedy recovery. But nothing is speedy at this stage in our lives. I did cheer one of them up by telling him that our favorite charter on the bay is getting a new boat, a bigger boat and I can’t wait to be on the deck with them pulling Rockfish out of the Bay.


Random Thoughts of the Day

The state of this country worries me greatly. To hell with the Deep State, we’re in Deep Shit.

I think I’ll relax and focus on a Ledo pizza this Thursday.

I like keeping busy at work. Makes the day go by quickly.

Sometimes its hard to figure out some people. Knowing which ones worth spending time figuring out is easy.

I promise to get some new images soon. Just starting to feel human again.