Are you happy today? Are you healthy today? I am, so its a great day so far. Yeah the rain and ice are a pain, if your out and about, but that is just small stuff. Think about someone trapped inside or unable to navigate outside without great difficulty. Even though I didn’t have to go anywhere I stepped outside and let some rain hit me in the face.
I’m thankful for finally figuring out some things before it is too late. Yeah I’m a slow learner. I’m finally comfortable in my own skin, even though some new wrinkles have me concerned. I’m comfortable in making decisions and that some or a lot in my case might not be right. And in those mistakes I don’t let them stop me from trying again and try to learn from them. I’ve given up on a lot of things a lot of times in my life. And that has been a waste I can’t get back.
I’ve learned to be happy with my effort. I’ve learned to be comfortable as a leader or follower and a lot of roles in between. I don’t beat myself up (well not as much) for not meeting personal goals or others expectations all the time. I always been worried about meeting and exceeding mine and others expectations as a measure of success, not now. Yes I’m always on a timetable and it’s always a moving target and I’m fine with missing a deadline now and not letting it get me down. Most of them are self-imposed anyway. Success is doing the work each day and letting the chips fall where they do.
I’ve learned not to be embarrassed about my images, thoughts and ideas. I think the more relaxed and comfortable I am about my work the more I’m capable of doing good work. The ideas flow when it’s not a stressful day.
The idea that there is some attainable level to strive to or some title or some position, is a myth. And the reason I think that is that we are our own, only limiters. As I think back I remember speaking about maybe one day moving from amateur ranks to professional. You know what. I don’t even care about that. Who’s to determine what day I’m which. I’m sure even if I did get some kind of professional status in the future, what makes that work happen every day.
Who knows, maybe along they way to becoming one I’ll have a few professional days along the way. But as I said, I don’t really care much about that. Because I never want to stop trying to do something each day that I could be proud of.
Then again, I’ll never top the thing I’ll always be the most proud of, my children.
Random Thoughts of the Day
Some seasons I like wind. Winter is not one of them.
Oh my Terps. Another one that slipped away.
Good friends are family.
Man the days pass more quickly each day. I’m ok with that on Mondays only.