Don’t know when, but someday soon I’m going to be going with the tide and not against it. In some ways this has been a very good year because I can always find the good in things. But most of it has been a physical struggle and after a while that takes a metal toll on you. So I must refresh that part again and again. Set myself goals and work as best I can each day towards them. Just keep coming back, just keep plugging away.

As I look back at my monthly flow chart it mimics my effort and participation. Which is kind of a nice thing to know, because once I get something sustained here it will be strong. And while medical time has really cut into my effort and abilities at times in 2015 that barrier will be out-of-the-way for 2016. And if it doesn’t I’m preparing myself for those times in advance so consistency is achieved here.

And no matter it taught me a valuable lesson. If I’m going to do this daily I have to devote more time to it and the associated crafts. I look forward to that actually because when I’m away from it I don’t feel like I’m challenging myself in the things that make me happy. Yeah the job has plenty of challenges. Making it to and from the job without being killed is a daily challenge. And of course families have challenges. And as the head of this family I will never shy away from those.

So while most days I feel like I start out fishing on the beach and solid land. Then in a blink of an eye, I’m so far off shore surrounded by water, without a boat. I know now the water will rise and retreat violently at times. I know some days I won’t be able to swim and will need a boat ready. I know I have to think smart, to execute all these wonderful ideas in my head and on my list of things to do because there is no time like the present. I need to whip up the courage to dial it up a bit to see if I can truly live up to this amateur photographer tag.

I’d write more but I have to start Christmas shopping today.