I was more apprehensive of what was possible than confident. I used to fear that all the time. Both success and failure or just being mediocre. Now that I’m finally comfortable with myself and don’t allow what others may think affect me, it’s the kind of freedom I haven’t had before.
I’m me, a man of many flaws and imperfections. Probably not that talented or insightful. I’ve been told there are a few good qualities also, but I’ll let history and others be the judge of that.
So, as I sit before the keyboard before dawn in my dark office I see a day filled with some smiles and laughs. Some chores and work. But also, one where I’ll spend time picking up the camera, paint brush and Dremel tool.
Oh crap, a doctor’s appointment. That puts a damper on things, but we will have a good time till it’s time to go.
What I’m enjoying now is a journey that I’ve looked forward to for some time. The end of one career and the beginning of the one I thought I’d pursue when I was in my early 20s. At least doing it this way I won’t be a starving artist. I’ll just be an artist.
But boy, what I missed doing. The lost time and opportunities that might have turned into a career. No time wasted though on thinking about what could have been, just what I can do now and getting to it.
Random Thoughts of the Day
- There is a lot to be said for saying nothing in some situations.
- My hair still stands on end when I hear the start of Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd.
- After Tuesday’s cold I can say with confidence that I’m not ready for Winter.
- I can hear my mother saying don’t give up on this or that person. I guess that resonated with me when she was alive.
