For some reason when editing some shots the other day, I stopped when I came across this photo. I almost threw it out. Some might think that was a good first thought. But anyway, photography makes me think. I relate events or emotions to images I take or come across. The more I shoot, the more it inspires thoughts and sometimes my writing.
The first thought I had when I paused a moment to look at it was, boy this sums up my year in some ways. It certainly started out in the bright glow of an early morning sunrise on the top step. You know that feeling, your strong, you have peak energy levels to attack the day. I felt like I was standing on that top step in the bright sun and on top of the world. I had everything.
But instead of the steps going up, they were going down this year. No problem we all have years like that sometimes, but I was still in the sunshine of the day. As I took that first step down though, I noticed that small shadow to my left. That was my spring where doctors visits began and the endless test.
The next 2nd step was a larger one than the first. But I still feel that sunshine and I feel strong. And I take it firmly but there is that shadow, and its larger and coming towards me. That was my early summer and surgery but a strong comeback was made from that and I’m still in the light.
But as I glance down to take my next step the light has gone grey and the shadow is large. There is a covered hole in the ground ahead and someone is going to pull the lid off it as I take the next steps. This is my late summer and early fall. So off to another set of doctors and treatments.
My world changed at that point. It will never be the same but it will be better in some ways. For as I stepped in that hole, I managed to catch myself with both hands firmly on the edges and I’m going to pull myself up and out of it and be ready to open the door to another and hopefully healthy new year.
This year has taught me much. I have an increased sense of appreciation for many things and people. I have become at peace with myself and have a confidence that I didn’t know I had. I prioritize better in some things. I love more deeply. I listen more intently. I watch and look for more to see. I know I’ve been blessed with a great family and friends, so I spend more time on those relationships. Also I’ve opened my mind to maybe taking better care of myself first instead of having that barely making the top 10 list.
So off I go to find photos to help me tell stories or express feelings and hopefully get that positive flow of life back. For the sun is finally out again for a few days so let’s get on with life again.
Random Thoughts for Saturday December 5th 2015
- A lot of things can make life better. Just allow yourself to act on them.
- Pain is an interesting perspective changer.
- Stella Notte in Ellicott City is a place for a very good meal.
- Life – make it work for YOU.
- I think I need to take more chances this coming year.
- Luna Bella in Hickory Ridge Village center is quickly becoming a favorite place to eat when visiting good friends.
- My goal today is to get off my ass and photograph and write. And of course love anyone I see along the way.