Well its as smooth as a pool. Caught this reflection this summer in Delaware. As usual a photo will give me a train of random thought to expand on. And that thought is reflecting on my own failings. For I’ve been writing a friend who is having his own issues fighting some personal daemons. Some days I’m hard on him. I also try to be supportive in each note. And keep most positive and looking forward.
But I have had or have similar issues for many years. And as I write him in trying to help him with his issues, I think about my own problems. Some I’ve dealt with very successfully and some not so much. There is no magic solution. It’s different for each person and circumstance. It all starts with the individual though.
There are few things that have worked for me. Looking and talking to yourself in the bathroom mirror. I remember berating myself over events and failure of character. I also would catch myself in lies because I know what the Truth is. I do it to this day, though far less often which is nice.
I also didn’t like hurting the people around me. I hurt both my wife and mother in my early years. I could never say I’m sorry enough. I have said it to them and by actions I hope I proved that I am sorry. But when you realize you hurt the two closest people to you, it’s not a good feeling to live with. So I try to continue to do better each day to make them both proud.
And to the many others I’ve probably either hurt or disappointed over the years, you have my sincere apologies. I’m always trying to do better though.
And my wish for my friend is to find your balance, find your heart, find your loved ones and true friends again and you will find yourself happy again in life. We love you brother.