All things are possible. Just not probable. But I will continue to believe anything I can get my mind and body behind is possible. I never had a strong belief in myself. Self doubt was more the course of thought. Therefore I didn’t take the opportunities at times in my life. I’m overcoming that and moving forward as everyone should.
Today I’m optimistic about the possibilities. I’ve been working hard at populating my photo site. I’ve sketched out a few more wood carvings for my granddaughter. The camera batteries are charging as we speak and several more prints were made yesterday and the press is just getting cranked up for today.
So here is to creating something wonderful today.
Holy crap, I noticed I’m starting to get old people skin. Time to get this body taught again. Mission tighten up begins. I guess I should go read up on this. One thing that started that never bothered me before and that is the dry skin on my shins. I guess some lotion is in order for that.
Really the skin should tighten up as I get more fit so that will be a help but I’m wondering what other exercises might be helpful. I noticed it on my hands the other day when I was starting work. I stretched my arms forward and my hands upward. And I saw wrinkles I hadn’t recognized.
Funny thing to be scared of – When I had my first cancer almost 2 decades ago, we didn’t have hospitals and labs posting test results to you. If they did they were mailed. And if I remember right when I was offered that I refused. I didn’t want results without context and that is what the doctors are their to provide.
Now my blood test results are available the day after the test it seems. So now each day I think about opening it and looking but I’m scared that if its not what I hoped for I still have to wait several days till my appointment to see what it means.
I had been getting tested every 3 months for a while and they moved it to every 6 months after my last visit. But it really doesn’t matter. 1 year, 6 months, 3 months. Its the same cycle of that lump in your throat. Some test I seem to do a little better at not focusing on it and being relaxed. Some though really put me through the wringer.
I wish I could just set it aside and just spend the time at the appointment in apprehension instead of the weeks leading up to it. All I want is that sigh of relief till the next test is due.
Random Thoughts of the Day
- I’d be accomplishing more if I was disciplined and organized, but I don’t think it would be as good or fun.
- And despite not being that organized, I’m making boo ko progress.
- First, there was the White Bronco. Today we had the Black Suburban.
- It felt great to have shorts on today. I can’t wait for tomorrow when it’s going to be even warmer.
