One or two things to pick up this morning and then my holiday shopping is complete. Then I can relax a bit. It’s funny how this year I’ve been behind on getting decorations up and just prepared for the holiday in general. I went over to one of my best friends last night and found he is in the same boat I am. Still putting up lights and decorations. And he is usually the one way ahead of me.

We both lamented on this year feeling different. I think we are just both worn out. So it was fun to kick back, watch a game, laugh about a few things, eat some pizza and contemplate all we have to do.

After reviewing schedules its no wonder we are a bit like that candle that has been burning from both ends for a while. But that is OK. Usually, I get a bit cranky when I’m tired but I feel relaxed and satisfied. Maybe I’m just beyond tired.

Been having trouble with sleep. A common issue with someone who deals with drastic schedule changes and has a back that likes to talk through the evening. I think it actually rambles all night long but when it feels I’m not listening it gives another twist till my eyeballs make like a road runner cartoon and pop out of my head.

Such is life, I’ll catch up on some rest after the new year.

I’m looking forward to the kids on Xmas day. It gives me chances to see the excitement they had as young ones. For they still are kids at heart which is a nice thing if you can carry it into adulthood. While not all childhood traits are good to carry forward, the spirit of giving and being appreciative of gifts with excitement, anticipation and joy, is good for your heart.

I’ve noticed as I’ve aged that little boy in me has become lost. Could be because the connections to that are gone. No parents around to remind you of those days and trigger that memory and bring that spirit back. Only a few pictures in slides or in chest of those early Xmas holidays. I do have one of both my parents holding me when I was very young in front of the tree on my shelf above my desk that I look at. But all that does is remind me how much I miss them now.

I look for those smiles and memories in my children to keep me going. I was recently at dinner with my daughter and I asked her which breakfast with Santa did she enjoy the most when she was young. It was just fun to watch her try to recall and then tell me her favorite one. I believe she said the breakfast with Santa at Woodies in the mall years ago was her best.

Each time I walk around the tree lot now, I think back to the days I used to take the kids out to tree farms and cut our own after endless journeys through fields. On some cold and snowy days if I recall correctly.

Well time to create some new memories so I better get on my horse and get out with the masses.

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Random Thoughts of the Day

One can’t be humble if he is without humility.

Christmas lights in the rain have a special glow.

I wonder how much longer it will be till dictatorship takes over fully.

Isn’t in unnerving to know if you got the right gift or not?

The James Mattis resignation letter is very distressing. And telling.

I love it when the first text or email of the day is from my children and not work.